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Name: Ashley
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Bernardino
Birthday: 10/27/1988
Gender: Female


Interests: I love the Masonic organization. I am member and Past Honored Queen of Bethel 262 of the International Order of Job's Daughters. DeMolay International is my life. I love this organization and supporting it. If you like to look further into either of them please visit these sites: http://www.iojd.org http://www.scjdemolay.orgAnything social. I have many loves. To many to describe.
Expertise: I see what other tend to over look. I look at people and see into their soul. People are my life and interacting with them is something I love to do. I anaylize everything and somewhat overthink things. I am very loving and have a give my heart and life freely.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other


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Member Since: 11/6/2004

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Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I love UCSB. I live in an apartment now.  I am now comfortable confessing my past, present, and my ambitions to anyone.  I am confident, strong, silly, and still very out spoken.  I want to inspire others and stand up for integrity, honesty and those things that produce a strong sense of moral character in people.  One day I'm convinced I'll be famous and these entries will be put into my autobiography.  The names have changed, some still remain. I'm just as crazy as I was two years ago. But I am comfortable with my irrational emotional outbursts.  I am a lover, who will forever be passionate about people.  I am now a woman girl, becoming aware of the level of influence she has on others.  I am fostering my talents, and realizing that I can shed light on things that would go unseen in others lives.  I'm figuring out what I want to be, and what this "woman" will look like.  As always, there is snags along the way.  My journey is still yours and my hand is reaching out to anyone who would love to join me on the voyage........lets see what this lady can do....


Thursday, August 17, 2006

Holy Crap I forgot about this damn thing.  I only read the first few pages.  Man have things changed.  Not only did I break up with Travis right before my 17th birthday, I got back together with him, only to break his heart.  Dated David, again.  Got my heart broken.  Karma works that way.  Went to Hawaii, France, Floridia, Vegas. Got accepted to UCSB.  Graduated high school. Move next month.  Soon to end my District year.  Lost so many friends.  Fell in love, twice in one summer, realized that it wasn't love.  And truly miss my bestfriends.  I've realized I'm only human.  I'm no better, and no worse than anyone else.  In the last summer of my youth I've grown up.  I lost weight.  And you know what, life just seems to be getting crazier by the second.  Maybe I'll start writting in this thing again.  Of course none of my friends that used to be on here manage their sites anymore, but that doesn't mean I can't.  I can't wait for 10 years to pass and me to look back on my writings to see how much I've grown as a woman.  How many more times I fall in and out of love, who's names reappear in my life.  I am speechless.


Sunday, November 06, 2005

I said I'd do this again....in a few months to see how much has changed about me...so I am.

Name: Ashley R. Dotter
Birthday: October 27, 1988
Call me: if you have my number
Height: 5'5"
Hair Color: blonde
Eye Color: hazel green
Where I'm at?: In front of my computer screen

SECTION 2//HAVE YOU EVER??

Peed in your pant? Why yes I have...........
Fallen off the bed? Today infact when I was diving for my folder.
Fallen for a relative? As far as I know of I have never had the "electra complex" and do not plan to.
Had plastic surgery?  nope..but I have had surgery.
Failed a grade? Never.
Failed a whole year? are you kidding...? 
Broke someone's heart? yes recently...and mine is broken too..
Had ur heart broken? broken is not the word...it's more torn out, ripped to piece's, spit on, and smashed until it was almost non-exsistant.  An now broken by my own words.
Had a dream come true? I think so......
Done something you regret? God yes......god...

Cheated on a test? Haven't we all?

Broken a body part?nope, but have torn a legiment. 

SECTION 3// CURRENTLY
Wearing: Red Six flags sweatshirt, Kakhi pants,  and I white bra.
Eating: nada
Feeling: Sad and depressed

Reading: this darn thing and ims from Andy

Chatting with: Andy

Watching: YOU!
Craving: peace of mind and heart.

SECTION 4//DO YOU...
Brush ur teeth? yes, ma'am.
Like anyone? well if I socialize with you on a pretty regular basis, I more than likely like you
Have any piercings? 4, all in my ear. 
Drive? Why yes I do.
Love GOD? was there in question about it...because the answer is yes. 
Ever get off the damn computer?actually i'm not on much

SECTION 5// FRIENDS
Known the longest: Garrett
Is Like family: my friends are my family. 
Knows you the best: me
Makes you smile: ....I miss Travis.  So I can't pick him, so I pick everyone else.
Nicest:humm my friends are kinda mean

Funniest: Sean, but Nathanial gives him a run for his money

Trust: all of them, ANGELINA
Most Hyper: no question about it...spike.
Loudest: Jason!!!!

Cutest: hummm....thats a difficult one...jason.

Inspiring: all of them
Understanding:coley

Most like you: Not sure
Shyest: Angelina
Best boy friend: Gosh...all of my guy friends are awesome...I love you all.

Lives closest to you: Vivi, Angelina,

Lives farthest from you: David, Larry, Richard, TRAVIS

SECTION 6// LAST PERSON YOU...

Hugged: David when I was with him about an hour ago

Kissed: Travis when he was home
Talked to on the phone: the AAA lady
Yelled at: Travis....break ups suck exspically when the make low blows
Checked out: me in the mirror earlier
Fell In love with: Duckie....Travis.


SECTION 7// PERSONAL

What do you want to be when u grow up? Besides a mother, wife, and hero, a Psychitrist that specializes in Schzophrenia, or Child Psychologist.

What has been the best day of ur life? The day I didn't want to cry.

What comes first in ur life? Me, My family, and My friends
Do u have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?  NO MY HEART IS MY OWN>
What do u usually think of before u go to bed? the day, my life, my desires, my passions.

SECTION 8// FAVORITE

Movie: The wedding singer, and Crazy/beautiful
Store: Target, woot woot
Relative: My real dad, my uncle. and my mommy.
Ice cream flavor:  cookies ' cream baby!
Food: what can I say I love to eat.
Drink: agua!!!!
Dessert: I love me some ice cream.
Candy: oOoOoO Cadbury mini eggs, Almond Joys, and M&M's
Sport: baseball...go angels!!!
Car: I really love my 91 chysler laberon

TV show: whose line...

Magazine: redbook...oh yea.
Band: No doubt...I will always love them.
Song: "Running, Running" No doubt.
Song to Sing: "Little Red RIding Hood"

Song written for you (in a sense): "I'm a bitch"
Day of the week: Wendnesday
Month: July...no school!
Holiday: 4th of July
Color: lime green
Scent: anything kinda musky...I like it like that.
Restaurant: El tio pepe...oh baby.
Name for a girl: Jordan

Name for a boy: Phillpe
SECTION 9// DO YOU

Like to give hugs? anyone and everyone.
Like to walk in the rain: more like play...better yet...wrestle
Sleep with or without clothes? naked is always better.

Prefer black or blue pens? Black is the best
Dress up for halloween? every year
Have a job? If being Past KLS abd Current IED sweetheart counts...than yes.
Like to travel? yes goign to france in January

Sleep on your side, tummy or back? i'm a side sleeper
Have a goldfish? Never had that opportunity 
Ever had the falling dream? In fact yes, just the other day. 
Have stuffed animals? Yup yup.
Go on vacation? if staying home counts as vacation, then yes.

SECTION 10//WHAT DO U THINK ABOUT WHEN YOU FIRST HEAR THE WORD

Abortion: Poor mother....

Summer: sunshine
Tattoos: dirty
Old man Piercing: old biker dudes
Guys: I just want a hug...and a sholder to cry on.
Girls: why do they have to be soo mean.

SECTION 11// DO YOU…

Smoke: nope nope
Drink: not in a long while.

Hate yourself: occasionaly
Believe in love: one of my greatest passions
Have a crush: I only love.
Go to church: no, haven't found one that suits my needs
Wish on stars: yes a lot lately
Believe in miracles: I am one...hehe.
Exercise: I sure do need too

Make the first move: If I want it I have to go out there and get it.
Play in the rain: wasn't this already asked?
Believe in love at first sight? I belive in a connection...love is a very powerful word and emotion.
Keep a journal?: this is going in it.
Get motion sickness:yeah for a whole week
Want to get married: yes but not for a long while.
Plan to go to college: why yes I am!


Thanks guys for the suggestions, I'm still deciding. 

This weekend was pretty good, I hung out with some old and new friends on friday, took my SAT subject tests on Saturday then went to a bridal shower, and today slept in, called Travis and then Cried my eyes out...he hates me and doesn't want to speak to me. And then rescued Dave, Ben, Ken and Jessica from Dave's grandma's broken down car.  It was great, you guys would have had to been there.


Thursday, November 03, 2005

ENGLISH AP SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  So many stupid essay's.  I guess I shouldn't be complaining, it's like college.  Only this year left of high school.  I feel really behind.  I AM really behind.  So I need to get my act together, finish my college applications, and catch up in english.  My only focus right now is school, I can't focus on anything else.  I am mastering the skill of time management.  I have no clue how I get anything done.  But i'm doing it.  Gosh...that reminds me, I have to start my 30 day project.  I have to change something about my life for 30 days, what do you guys suggest? 



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